Bila Cinta..OST lagenda budak setan..

Bila cinta kini.

Tak lagi bermakna

Yang ku rasa kini

Hanyalah nestapa

Ditinggalkan cinta masa lalu

Dulu kau tawarkan

Manisnya janjimu

Yang ku sambut itu

Dengan segenap hatiku

Bila engkau pergi

Tinggalkanku

Hilangnya cintamu

Menusuk hatiku

Hingga ku memilih

Cinta yang fana

Perginya dirimu

merobek jantungku

Hingga ku terjatuh

Dalam harapan

Hilangnya cintamu

Menusuk hatiku

Hingga ku terjatuh

Dalam harapan

Uuu...

Dalam harapan

p/s : Jo*..if you read this...i just want u to know..i cant stop loving you even u said u can...i cant hate u..even u want me too..n the truth is...even ur heart not belong to me anymore,my heart still belong to you...even u cant call me with that name anymore, in my heart i still calling u...even u r not mine anymore, im still urs..even im never appear in ur mind..u still there in mine...i know u happy with ur life now...i know u happy with ur love now..and trust me...im happy for u...thats y i never disturb u anymore...bcoz i know im nothing for u..but to forget every single thing about u..to forget my feeling toward you..im sorry...i cant...i can del everything about u..but the only thing i cant del is u r always in my mind..forgive me baby..to love u this much even i know it wrong...to love u even ur not..but the thing is..its not easy for me to live with the fact that u r gone...

terkelu...

Ok..

speechless sekejap baca email tue..sedar tak sedar..mata ni meleleh lagi..

Bagaimana seorang yang pernah menjaga hati ini ibarat dia menjaga segelas kaca dari jatuh..

Boleh berubah dan memijak2 hati ini ibarat sampah..

Hebat dugaan Allah kalini..

Disaat manusia lain memulakan kerja dipagi hari dgn semangat yang tinggi..

Aku diuji dengan hebat..

Terima Kasih untuk hadiah kasih ini..xpalah..mungkin saya layak terima ujian ini..

p/s : how could an angel break my heart...?

hurmm...

I never ask for more...

enough you are there when i need you...

enough for me to know you love me too...

enough for me to know i never lost you...

because i know from start..

Everything happen for a reason..

And everything happen between us is wrong..

Thats why i told you...

Dont leave me alone..

but take my hand together to be back on the right track..

Thats enough for me to know and understand that you love me to..

Than i can start learning to stop loving you..

more than a friend..

,,,,

Hye baby,..

I know u sleeping now..sorry sebb slalu ganggu bby tido bila i keja shif mlm..call mlm2 bila org lain semuanya tido..ksian bby slalu xcukup tido sebb I kan..byk kna korban masa sendiri semata2 utk I...I hbs keja time org lain semua da tdo..pg keja time bby ondaway nk balik..so im sorry..sebb selalu menyusahkan..kna kjut I bgn..ingtkan itu..ingatkn ini..I tau u xpnah merungut..sebb I tau u syg I sgt..

Bby,masuk hari ni dah dkat 5 bln kita sama2 kan..cpat masa berlalu..tp setiap saat yg berlalu tue I happy sgt..sebb I tau I Ada u selalu..walaupun jauh..walaupun bkn dpan mata..tp I slalu tau u selalu ada dgn I..selalu ada utk i crita..mengadu..merajuk..manja2.. ;) ..thanks baby for always be there..

Bby,I know im so busy today..rasanya bkn stakat harini..tp hari2..I tau bby rasa mcm xdipedulikn..Terutamanya smlm kan..I tau salah I xkol time on meal..I tau byk buat salah..im sorry again..sorry sebb slalu mengabaikan bby..sedangkn sebusy mana pun bby..bby xpnah abaikan I..That's y im so lucky to hv you rite..bby busy mcm mana pun tak pnah miss kejut i bgn utk pegi keja xkira waktu...im sorry and thank you very much..

Bby,..u know what..for me,u r everything..yg paling cantik..hot..baek..manja..bby adalah antara insan yg paling memahami..memahami I..thank bby syg..sebb paling byk bertolak ansur dgn I..sebb slalu xmrh I lama2..sebb sanggup susah payah buat menu diet utk i..huhu..I know u love me..that's y u always act like that..slalu bby majuk kejap ja..paling2 pun nangis bila dah sakit ati dgn i sgt..xpnah nk tengking2 i..marah2 i..thanks bby..I appreciated that so much..I know..No body can love me better the way u did..coz u know exactly how to appreciated me..u know exactly how to punish me..huhuhu...

I tau..sebyk mana I ckp I love u pun xkan dpt tanding kasih syg bby..sepenuh hati I..I ucapkan terima kasih sgt atas kasih syg tue..I never feel alone when I know u always with me..and I always try my best to be the same for you too..to give the loe you deserve too..I know I promise u so much also..but not all my promise I keep rite...I keep make same mistake..n u..keep forgiving me..but u dun know how I blame myself when I make u cry..jahat i buat mata comel tue bengkak2 kekdg kan..

Bby..thank for giving me..you..org ckp bila kita cr mesti kita xkan jumpa..u r the one who i already loss hope to get..dulu asyik cr2 je..tp bila tak dicari tue bru kita nmpk yg berharga didpn mata kan..I don't know how could I tell you how much I love you..coz I know..im not as good as u..to show how you love me so much..i tau ckp je tak memadai kan..even kekdg org kata...ckp boleh la..tapi hati...ok xpa,nnt i buktikan hati i pun syg u sgt... ;P

But believe me..inside my heart..no matter where I go..how busy I am..I only love you now..So much..

Gudnite baby bucuk..sweet dream..muahh..

30+31+31+28 + 31

"Takkan lagiku sendiri
Kasih yang berlabuh kini
Terasa keabadian cinta kau beri
Mungkinkah daku bermimpi
Sebahagia begini
Ini bukan ilusi
Oh kasih"

Another day happen in my life with you..make me feel greater and better everyday..
I love you..

lalala

mungkin agak buruk...
But it have our dreams..

For my...

To know either you really love someone...or not

when you telling someone that you love them...You know how you feel if you lost them..How hurt you gonna be..even the truth is...you still got her in your arms...
Believe me...you know you are in love..when you see how hurt you gonna be..if you lose them...

I know how lucky i am to have you..I know im not perfect..but having you in mylife..
Im felt so damn perfect already...i love having you in my world..

Today...i wanna tell you how much i love you...how much i care...how much you mean to me..And how much you change my life..

Million...

Thanks for waking me up everyday..
Thanks for be my biggest fans..
Thanks for always waiting me back from work no matter what time it is..
Thanks for taking care of my heart and me..
Thanks for pampering me always..
Thanks for changing my life..
Thanks for stand still even sometimes i mad without reason..
Thanks for accept me for who i am..
Thanks for always forgive me..
Thanks for truly...deeply..sincerely loving me with all your heart..
Thanks for being so amazing in every way..
Thanks for giving me...YOU..

Happy Valentine day..

My feb?

Say suka bulan feb tahun ni..kenapalah?

first aku dpt peluang bercuti yg agak panjang...8 hari dikira panjang utk kerja cm aku yg tak tentu jadual...

second bercuti dgn insan tersyg..

3rd..bulan ni gaji dpt awal sikit...best sebb gaji bulan lepas pun dpt awal n byk sdikit coz aku byk buat OT..so bercuti dlm keadaan tidak risau sgt psl kewangan..sebelum dan selepas bercuti..

hehee...tahun ni mcm tahun cuti2 je..kwn2 aku pun tahun ni byk pegi cuti2 mesia..si pencurik hati pun akan melawat negara lain bulan 7 ni..aku pun baru je balik dari cuti2 mesia di sabah...

3 hari 2 mlm yg best...walaupun transport hanyalah taxi, van ( yg aku sungguh jakun bila naik, tgk ada loceng sebijik cm dlm bas ) dan juga kaki aku sendiri...tp bagi aku sgt bernilai..sebb kalau naik kereta...comfirm aku taktawu rupanya van disana berfungsi mcm bas mini..(kat tempat aku van sapu camgini amik dak skolah je..)kalau naik kereta..comfirm aku tak dpt tgk dan berjalan ke pasar filipine melalui jalan mengadap laut...plus dpt belajar perkara baru pasal mutiara..(korg tau tak mutiara ada 2 jenis?)...

1st day tak byk aktiviti kami buat sebb aku tersilap beli tiket kul 650 pg..so kakak nk keja dia hantar aku pg lcct ul 1 pg..tercangoklah aku kt cd lcct tue smpi tie check in..then da smpi sabah, dia da tgg aku..amik teksi terus pegi hotel...so disebbkn tak ckp tido aku tido dulu smpi kul 2 bru kuar...kitorg pegi 1borneo tgk movie..yerlah..kami jauhkan..so mana ada peluang tgk muvi sama2..bila da jumpa bru boleh buat ni..naseb cerita toothfairy tue best..so xda la bosan sgt..



Since bulan ni bulan kasih syg..n memandangkan kami jauh..kami buat candle lite dinner dulu sebelum 14 feb..


Esok tue aku dapat menyerlahkan kejakunan yg melampau dkt dia..aku dgn jakunnya terkesima tgk laut disana cantik nak mampus..(nmpk ikan berenang2 okeh kat bwh kaki ko..)..thanks bby sebb still ngaku i ni kesygan u walaupun i jakun mcm tue..hahaha...bukan apa tak pernah tgk pantai mcm tue kat tempat i...clean n clear lagi..so menjakunkan diri seketika..


sebenarnya pd hari kedua kami melawat salah satu pulau Taman Tunku Abd Rahman..so, kami pilih Pulau Manukan coz kami just nak jalan2 bukan snorkeling + Mandi laut...coz taman ni tak salah merangkumi 3 pulau..Antaranya Pulau Manukan, Pulau Mamutik dan pulau apa tah ( sorry dah lupa)..so bila sampai sana..terus sewa tikar n cari spot utk berdating2 tepi pantai...suka moment tue..walaupun perasan byk muka2 compius ( or jeles ) tgk kami berdua..yerlah..sorg budak gemuk..sorg budak kurus..sorg muka comel2 buruk ..sorg cantik..so mcm kontra abis kan..hehe..takpe..(memahami..)..lgpun kami posing2 manja2 kan...then ptg tue pgr pasar filipine cr tasbih Tiger Eye utk kwn kakak n abah..kakak pesan gelang dia dan jugak butang baju melayu utk dia kawen nnt..terpegun tgk semua brangan dkt situ adalah mutiara...awal2 dia da pesan biar dia yg berckp..jgn aku yg berckp..sebb risau bila penjual tawu aku org semenanjung..harga tue akan jd sgt mahal..tp lepas dah shopping tue mmg betul apa dia ckp..barangan yg sama kami beli..bila da nk blah dr kedai tue n tetiba ada org dtg tanya..harga yg diberi tawu double dr harga kami ok!..da terbeliak da bijik mata kami dkt sini...naseb2..

the besok tue pegi jenjalan dkt Gaya Street..sini aku byk beli gelang utk kekwn n adik aku..awal tue ada benda tak best jd..kitorg try kuarkan duit dkt sesetgh atm situ..kebetulan dia xbleh kuarkan..aku boleh..tetiba masa da jumpa maybank check2 balance duit dia dlm tue da ilang..terus aku suh dia kol maybank..seb baik ptg tue masa dia nk hntr aku check balik duit tue da ada balik..nasebla kejadian pagi tue xspoil mood dia..so dpt jejalan lg dkt situ..

Ptg ahad da balik...dia hantar kat airport..tp sindrom blur2 dia da jd balik mcm time dia nk balik sabah bila dia dtg kl haritu..tawu dia susah nk lepas aku balik...susah juga nk tinggal dia..da biasa ada org berjln dan mkn sama2 dkt sebelah..tp nak buat mcm mana da masing2 jauh...

apa pun..thanks baby...you know how much i love you rite...missing you already...nnt kita jumpa lg k...

p/s : tgh planning another vacation...so i can spend time with you again...lets saving money!!

30+31+31

Thanks for making me a better person by loving me for who I am...

Happy Monthsary..

For my baby love

You know that awful feeling you get when you say something,
and before all the words are even out of your mouth,
you wish you hadn't said it?
Well, that's how i feel right now...
really sorry and really foolish.
So please, Can you forgive me?...

for you again

missing u

If someone ask me what i wish right now..
i would wish to watching you sleeping at the night and wake up every morning with you by my side..to hear the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek,to felt your touch on my skin, and to listen your heart beating...

Before I sleep and after I wake up and all the hours in between ... you occupy my mind. So, practically every moment of the day you are in my thoughts. I miss you.

Another song for you..

Baby I Love You

Baby I love you and I'll never let you go

But if I have to boy I think that you should know

All the love we make can never be erased

And I promise you that you will never be replaced (X2)

I love you, yes I do

I'll be with you as long as you want me to

Until (until) the end (the end) of time

From the day I met you I knew we'd be together

And now I know I wanna be with you forever

I wanna marry you and I wanna have your kids

Thinking never compared to be without Your kisses

I can say I'm truly happy to this day

You made me thank god that I live my life everyday

There's never been a doubt(been a doubt) in my mind (in my mind)

That I regret ever having you by my side

But if the day comes that I have to let you go

I think there's somthin' I should probably let you know

Enjoyd everyday that I spend with you

And I will miss you but I'm happy that I had you at all

Baby I love you and I'll never let you go

But if I have to boy I think that you should know

All the love we made can never be erased

And I promise you that you will never be replaced (2X)

I love you ohh yes I do

I'll be with you as long as you want me to

Until (until) the end (the end) of time

30+31

We rush to work and rush back home..and even sometimes we busy with our work or busy going out with friends or family..it seems like we're always rushing from house to work to store..So it's nice to pause a moment from all those things to say..I L-L-O-O-V-V-V-E-E-E YOU!

Because My favorite moment in my life now is when i in love with you..

Happy Monthsary for us...

u make me love u..

1245am...

hurm..time ni..si pencurik hati sy mungkin sedang tido dlm keadaan merajuk...
tp taktawu nape rasa makin tambah syg tuh dekat dia...

Sebb tawu dia syg tuh sebb dia merajuk..

Skang dia da pandai noty2 jugak..selalu kacau sy time keja dgn mms yg......

Tp takpe..gangguan dia selalu buat sy tercelik mata balik time tgh kerja..
Ilang segala stress...

Jadi..manalah sy mampu...kalau xda dia...sebb...

dialah sipencurik hati saya...
dialah pendengar setia saya...
dialah alarm clock saya...
dialah reminder saya...
dialah diary hidup saya...
dialah kegembiraan saya...
dialah big fan saya...
dialah financial counselor saya...
dilah sumber inspirasi saya...
dialah satu2nya manusia sekarang ni yg saya tak malu or segan utk busuk2 didepan dia...


so kepada budak yang merajuk dgn sy tue...

sorry bby syg..didnt mean to sleep while you are waiting...

but trust me..kamu sentiasa yg teratas...

Story for today

Look around you and you will be amazed at what you see. We take so much for granted because we focus on the parts of our lives that are hard or unfulfilled.

But if we really stop to look at what we have...we are truly blessed. Others would only dream to have what we take for granted.

• The homeless person wishes to have that little house you wish were bigger.
• That mother who lost her son would do anything to deal with that defiant child.
• The Father that cannot feed his three kids would love to go to the job you hate.
• The woman riding her bike 10 miles to work wishes to have the car you want to trade in.
• That lonely woman would love that man that forgets to take out the garbage or doesn't pick up after himself.
• That orphan child wouldn't mind the mother that makes him clean his dirty room.
• The crippled adolescent would love to climb that flight of stairs you dread.
• The woman in the hospital dying of cancer wishes to rush home after work to cook her family a meal.

You see it's all in how we look at things.

PS: My dear friends, if we start to look at our lives with the right perspective and focus on the blessings, we will be filled with gratitude. To focus on what we have and not on what we don't is the best way to live. In the end, the biggest joy and blessing is love. If you look hard enough you'll be amazed at how much love surrounds you and how much you truly have. What you have today you will miss someday.

Its for you..

I dont have time to create a video for you at this moment...but i really wanna give you this song..

Kau merubah segala,
Cinta yang ku dahaga,
Kehadiran dirimu menyinarikan semula hatiku,
Kaulah segalanya,
Yang menyinar hidupku, kasih
Hanya satunya yang ku cintai

Hulur tanganmu kasih,
Sambut cintaku,
Jangan tinggalkan aku seorang diri
Tak sanggup lagi dilukai

Maafkan aku, jika salahku,
Peristiwa yang pernah ku alami dulu
Aku tahu, betapa pahit mu,
Menerima sejarah hidupku

Kaulah segalanya,
Yang menyinar hidupku, kasih
Hanya satunya yang ku cintai

Sambutlah cintaku
Jangan kau pergi dari sisiku
Cintaku padamu ikhlas sejati

Cintaku padamu, ikhlas sejati

Thanks for coming into my life..
You are more than a everything i could imagine to have..

Just express what you feel...

How would our lives look without love? I already went thru mine without it. Love is the best thing that can happen to a everyone. It lets us feel eveything..makes us happy, sometimes sad, but i bet most of it is happy. So, for me, love as much as you can and don’t be afraid to say “magic words” to someone special for you, anytime you feel like it and in as many different ways as you can imagine.It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and an day to love someone… but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.So appreciated the one you have now..

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darknest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light
I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me to the ground again

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrance
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over
your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

Don’t find love, let love find you.
That’s why it’s called falling in love,
because you don’t force yourself to fall, you just fall.

It just about her...

Menatap indahnya senyuman diwajahmu

Membuat ku terdiam dan terpaku
Mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah
Saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku

Banyak kata
Yang tak mampu kuungkapkan
Kepada dirimu

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Meski waktu akan mampu
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
Ku ingin kau tau
Kuslalu milikmu
Yang mencintaimu
Sepanjang hidupku..


Baby...thanks for being you and love me more than i deserve..i wish you always there..i love the way you looked..i love the way you care...i love the way you sleep..and thanks for everything..thanks for the moment..thanks for coming into my life..i'm sorry if i always hurt you..i'm sorry if i'm not care...i'm sorry if i always make you drop your tears...but believe me syg...whether we’re together or miles apart..remember I love you with all my heart...

-me-

24/10/2009 - 29/10/2009

hurm..mcm lama tak update blog ni kan..

Akhirnya aku convo lagi buat kali kedua..so skang sahlah aku graduan ijazah sarjana muda sains perpustakaan..walaupun rasa mcmnaksambung master lagi..tapi rasa mcm nanti dulu jerk..rasa mcm tak leh handle lagi kerja dgn study serentak..so better aku fokus kerja je skang kan..


yerp..mcm korg duk baca post2 aku sebelum ni yg aku bz menghitung hari..hehe..akhirnya hari yg ditunggu pun tiba..best sebb dpt spend masa dgn dia sorg je..seronok bila bangun pagi2 de org dekat sebelah..bukan bantal pelok yg kaku tidak bergerak2..heheh best bila ada org teman pegi makan..best bila ada org pegi jenjalan..n utk itu..thanks syg..sebb sudi turun kl dekat seminggu n spend masa sama2..mmg mcm singkat ja masa..at least kita spend masa sama2 kan..bwk baby tgk teater dkt istana budaya mcm yg i janji tue...

Org yg paling dia nak jumpa..

bwk dia jumpa hans isaac yg dia nk jumpa sgt tuh n aku pulak duk terkinja2 nebes tak pasal2 bila nak jumpa afdlin shauki..hahaha..best gila..mcm puas hati betul dpt bawak baby and jumpa afdlin shauki serentak..walaupun buku biografi aku dicuri org sebb bz amik gambar.. takperlah..yg penting aku dpt borak dgn afdlin..hehehe..tak dpt bayangkan kalau dpt jumpa angelina jolie mcm mana plak aku kan..hehehe

pepun..smlm( 29/10/2009 ) org tuh dah balik sabah...masa hantar dia dkt airport sempt lagi budak kat kaunter check in tuh nk ngayat dia..ceh ..bukan dia dpt pun kalau dia try..hurm.wutever pun...going to miss u again baby..thanks sebb layan kerenah i...thanks sebb buat byk benda utk i..jgn nakal2 kat sana ..jgn degil2..jgn buat i risau..nnt kita jumpa lagi k..even jauh beribu batu..i akan cuba jugak nnt...rasa lain bila balik airport dlm kereta takda org dekat sebelah...hurm..miss u already....

utk kekwn yg wish congrat utk aku..tekiu..nnt aku upload gambar2 convo kami..jgn terkejut coz aku convo pakai tudung..hahaha...biasalah kan..back to basic..itu saja...

adios..