i can close my eyes to things i dont wanna see… but i cant close my heart to things i dont wanna feel..and this all about my life..and my journey while im breathing..
Saturday, September 27, 2008
she luv me?..
yes,i do luv u...im ur gurl k...
hurm...r u serious or wut syg...or it juz a luv word without meaning...coz i dun know wut inside ur heart....n seriously im still afraid to fall to deep to you..coz i know u r also someone else gf...im sharing u wif someone..im thanks god i juz sharing u wif a guys...not same people like me...but seriously..i cant let u go now..or given up..hahaha..weirdo kan..or like ur dearest bf said...wa obses sama lu...hehe..coz..wut ever things happen n sometime make me feel jealous or wut so ever..u r still my priority...even all the luv i get from others...even all the playing around wif the scandal..still u r the one i think bout...to hard to luv u..to hard to get ur heart...to hard to believe a word from a sweet talker like u..haha...but da thing is...aku ni still sayang sama kamo...
like my sis used to say...
im feel like wanna killing u..slalu ckp nak berenti..tp tuh jugak yg lil cr...but still i luv u..so i will support u..
hahaha...n sis..thanks for dat...coz always be around me when im been stupid..
Thursday, September 25, 2008
kadang2...
kadang2...rasa bleh je terima dia ada org lain....
kadang2..rasa macam nak terima je sesiapa yang sygkan aku...
kadang2..rasa mcm nak dia sorg je syg aku...
kadang2...rasa hati ni tak dapat tahan tgk kemesraan diorg...
kadang2..rasa hati..aku pun begitu...
kadang2..terpk sampai bila nak sakitkan hati orang...
kadang2...terpk cukuplah setakat tuh...
kadang2..aku rasa aku perampas hak orang...
kadang2..aku rasa aku tak kesah pun dia xterima aku..
kadang2...tertanya...do u luv me to...
kadang2...aku tawu..yes she luv me too..
tapi..sampai bila kadang2...
entah..aku pun taktawu...
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
the prince hotel things....errr....
its juz a dinner wif a frends...n its only about 1 hours then i choose to be wif you..finding a roses and buy you some food, see wif my eyes that you eat sumthing...coz i cant stand to let u not eat anything while im enjoyin some good food wif someone else...and syg...that a simple proft that i luv you so much... :)
Sunday, September 21, 2008
lalalalaa...
kenapalah bila aku dah pk aku dah dpt dia..tetiba aku kena pk untuk hilang dia...
i luv u...
but u cant be mine...
its hurt u know when i need to share...
but i try before..coz i need u...
but i dunno till when i can hold...
n i dunno..
do u really luv me or wut...
but rite now...even i hve others...
i juz want u syg...
no one else...
tp kenalah susah sgt...
nak tido dah...
gudnite....princess..a kiss on ur lips...n forehead...nite...
hope everythin goin to be find...
Saturday, September 13, 2008
hurts...
aku tgh driving balik masa aku dpt msg ue..its about 2.45am at that time.terkejt aku..sebb setahu aku org tue pegi date harini..so aku takmau kaco..plus aku pun ada date harini..heh...aku terus kol dia..damn..shes crying..i dun feel so gud bout that...when i ask her y..somethin bad happen to her...si sultan yg tua belasah dia...damn...kenapa tue yg sepatutnya jadi bila dlm hati ingat harini sepatutnya dia happy...dah la phone aku pun hilang..everyth going to be so wrong today...naseb aku agak baek sebb hilang phone je...tapi nasib dia...sedih pulak bila pk time aku happy dia pulak kena siksa mcm tuh...
i really need to know ur situation princess...go to the nearest hospital please...make a police report to avoid him to hurt u again...please...i dun think u deserve to get hurt juz like this AGAIN.ni belum kawen lagik...kalau dah kawen mcm mana...
i hope u ok..coz at this moment when i try to call..u dun pick up ur phone...really worried bout u..god..please help her...please take care for her coz i cant do that...tuhan...tolng jaga dia....selalu..
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
last nite
Monday, September 08, 2008
Monday, September 01, 2008
friday nite,avril concert..
apa pun..memang happening konsert tuh..cuma bila org2 yg takde minat sgt dok tgk..takder la kami mcm terlompat2 atau terjerit2..hehe..kushuk je aku nengok dia..harap dia bleh happy..bleh lupakan semua masalah dia..walaupun si avril tuh byk nyanyi lagu2 sedih yg mcm terkena dkat dia...walaupun kekdg asyik menguap..kos dia baru je smpi dari kedah..tp dia nk pegi jugak dgn aku..sian dia,letih..penat2 kena kuar dgn aku pulak sebb tiket da beli..thanks sgt sebb u can make it to be there with me..lpas ni da taktawu bila i dpt jumpa u lagik..
outside da stadium after da concert
kitorg ingat nk kuar konsert awal..taknak tunggu smpi habis..nk kuar lepak2 jap before balik...sekali konsert tuh sebenarnya habis awal..around 1030 dah habis..so terus blah dr situ..ramai gila org kat situ..dah le hujan..tapi sempat lagik kami beratur amik poster..hehe..mcm le minat sgt kan..tp mcm ada je org yg akan teradd avril2 fan club dlm fs..yang pasti bukan aku..hahaha... :P
bila dpt kuar dr kawasan stadium..terus aku bwk dia ke area klcc..bwk dia lepak makan dkat padi house..around jalan p.ramlee .. sebb kami masing2 da lapar giler.. dia pun makan pagi tadik je.. padi house mmg nice place.. sesuai dating..kami?..hehe.. naa....
wondering wut u think
sempat snap gambar nie masa dia tgh kushuk tgk org kat bawah..i luv diz picha..tuh sebb aku tak upload dlm fs..sebb aku tanak share gambar ni dgn org lain..mmg betul org kata..satu gambar boleh menceritakan seribu cerita..juz like diz..da sad things..da moment..tired.. n everything.. but still all i can do juz to be there for her..listen everything to make her calm.. try to make her happy.. i even gve her my phone to let her messaging da bf..walaupun aku bkn sebulu sgt dgn si bf..huhu.. i wish.. i help her a lil bit...because dats all i can do for my princess... that the only things i can do for some1 i luv.. coz i juz want to see her happy.. i dun want to see her crying.. cukup la dgr dia nanges dlm phone haritu.. serius..hati ni sakit sgt bila dgr dia nanges mcm tuh..sakit utk tgk org yg kita syg menderita..tapi ape je aku mampu buat kan..tuh sebb aku suh abid utk terus kuat..terus sokong dia..jgn putus asa..paham keadaan dia.. jgn salahkan dia. jgn push dia..do sumthing dat i cant do..sebb aku tak boleh buat lebih dr tue..sebb aku bukan abid..aku bukan org yang dia syg..aku bukan org yg diharap akan selamatkan dia...aku bukan org yang dia harap akan ada disisi dia...aku cuma seorang kawan.. yang mampu aku buat..cuba ada dgn dia..n cuba gembirakan dia.. dengar segala-galanya.. mungkin ramai org tanya..kenapa aku buat mcm ni..kenapa aku syg dia sgt..apa yang aku bleh jawap..takde apa sebb pun untuk aku syg dia.. walaupun aku tawu dia takkan terima aku.. cuma bagi aku..dia adalah antara insan terpenting dlm hidup aku..yang aku nak sgt tengok..dia gembira dan bahagia...tue je... lagipun.. shes my only princess...